Hey there Maker nerds.
I just wanted to post something now that the dust is settling and my head is clearer than it was a few months ago.
I disconnected hard from most online stuff and work back at the end of September because my exwife filed for divorce on me out of the blue. The TLDR is that things just didn't work out and we're not compatible. It forced me to look inward to see what I can work on to be a better version of myself. One major thing I have been working on treating and understanding is my ADHD. I will not use it as an excuse for poor behavior, I will use it as a way to understand myself better and find healthy ways to cope with it.
I know I've garnered a reputation for being opinionated and too harsh sometimes in the past. I've been working on keeping my temper in check and not rushing to conclusions over the last 1.5 years. I never knew that emotional regulation was an issue when it came to having ADHD (my doctor that diagnosed me 10 years ago never mentioned it). That combined with the "hyper focus" that I would get would be why I'd get so intensely wrapped up in whatever drama was happening in the 3d printing community. My brain found that kind of activity very stimulating so I was drawn to it.
I just wanted to say publicly that if I came off like an "asshole" or a "dick" that I really was not that upset about things. I realize now that the reaction I was feeling when it would happen was just a result of my brain being wired the way it is. I have been doing a lot better even pre-divorce but there is always room for improvement. I appreciate those who were understanding when I did something stupid and allowed me to make amends instead of holding things against me forever.
I've been learning more about the disorder so I can be a better person in general along with doing therapy and ADHD medication. One other big thing that affected my life negatively is that I didn't get enough sleep and I'd constantly be off any kind of schedule, which made everything even worse. It's been very eye opening and a lot to take in all at once. But I am happy to say that I am glad this is happening now. I hope that next year I can be the best version of Tim that I can be for myself, my friends, my family, my coworkers, and the communities I hold dear to me.
If you see me slipping up please feel free to gently put me in check because sometimes I will need someone to check me if I don't catch myself, hold me accountable for my actions. I want to keep improving and I want to be a good person. I hope that I can do that for myself going forward.
That all being said, I will be more active online as I get into my new "groove" and start spending time doing things I enjoy again. I hope you all have a great New Year and I'll see you all in 2022 with a fresh outlook in things.